Wednesday, May 20, 2015


Now I know what you think
When you look into her eyes
You desiring her
Means you've been feeding me lies

She challenges you
& your concept of us
Along with the Love
Now I question the trust

The time and the faith
I have put into you
Now knowing the truth
I question what you do

But I saw this coming
Its no surprise to me
As you decide what you want
And with whom to be

So here's to the question
I wouldn't let you ask
Because I knew you loved me
But were not through with your past

So do what you must
Yet don't string me along
Or hold me tight and tell me
You haven't wanted her all along


Tuesday, May 19, 2015

As I Am

Freedom's been given to me
It's my birth right to fly
Regardless of the questions
Allow my spirit to rise

I'm fighting for a reality
In what was once justified
By the air I breathe
By the tears I've cried

I've fought hard
To be who I am today
Stand for what I do
Back all the things I say

And I am only me
This is the way I will stay
So take me as I am
Or simply walk the other way

'Cause the last thing I'll do
Is beg you to stay.


Because of You

Because of you
I look in the mirror
and am unsure of what I see
Because of you every morning I ask
To be accepted.. must I hate me?

Because of you I wonder
Because of you I ask
It's because of you
I've wanted to run away from myself
Get away fast.

Because of you
I cry
Because of you
I've die
Because of you
It's fine!
For them to do this to me 

Because of you I hate who I am
So I prayed to the Heavens
The Heavens in which you believe
"Can I come back as someone different someday?
'Cause I don't want to be me."

Because of You
I struggle in ways no one ever should
Because of You
I march alone
I never thought I would

Now I can't trust myself
or that quiet voice within
It's like looking at a piece of myself
Screaming out you're not right
Amanda you're broken!

& It's all because of you
I wish you only knew....
How much you hurt me then
How much it hurts me still.


Friday, May 15, 2015

Her Love

Have you ever looked
At your woman and known
She deserves so much more than you?
At times, when you looked her
Do you ask what more can I do?
Do you hold her extra tight
When you make love to her at night?
To assure yourself she's real
Her love is truly what you feel

When her touch brushes you
And you fear its your imagination
Do you realize she's the one
He made for you, God's creation?
When she takes your breath away
By her sweet sexy smell
Every time she passes by you
Are you reminded of why you fell?

& When she lays close
In the safety of your arms
Would you give your life to protect her?
Keep your love and her from harm?
And when she smiles at you
From across a crowded space
Do you think of forever
As your heart speeds to a race?

Do you cry cause you wish
You had so much more to give?
That one incredible woman
Your love and reason to live
All you can do is tell her
Whatever you truly feel
All that's in your heart...
"I love's you's never felt so real"