Cheers!

To all the lies you told me

& all the promises you broke

To all the tears I've cried

For all the letters you wrote

To all the "forevers"

& all the "soul mates!"

For making me love you

To believing in fate


For making me trust

To making me cry

For making me that girl

To leaving me with why

For us and our love

To breaking the tie

For me wanting to live

To me wanting to die


For asking me the question

To me screaming yes

For us and our dreams

To putting us to rest

For all of our past

To a future without me

For wherever life takes you

To my future wife-to-be


For the pain and the laughs

To the loss of the love

For the smiles and the tears

To the memories and the grudge

For truly taking a chance

To truly making a choice

For "What happens next?"

To giving me a voice


For all that has happened

To the pain that remains still

For nothing will be the same 

To what's meant to be... will 

For the best that's yet to come 

I say, Cheers! 

Goodbye and thank you

Forever, My Love.

Prison of Youth.

Locked up! 

So much inside

Trying to run 

Dying to hide

& Yes, they know

For it’s on my face

Just put on a smile

Before the tears begin to race

I am looking for more  

But I cannot see

So I trip & I fall 

& I beg & I plead

I try to stand strong

Yet collapse to my knees

Praying for peace that

May never come to me

So shhhh…, Stay quiet

Don’t let them know

In the darkness you cry 

When it’s too painful to grow

'Cause it's scary to get hurt!

Or worse lose your way

Just keep your head up

Carry on with your days

Cause my dear friend
The truth is difficult to say

You’ve got to stay honest

Stay true, Stay brave.

Take it one day at a time

Let the chips fall where they may
Keep your head up

& surely you will find your way

Lyric Lee 

Stirrings

It’s stirrings… feelings and immediately you know

That something makes you different, and you pray it can’t show

& being different means you have something to hide

Hence the beginning a life of lies

Maybe you could sense it
For us it was the same, the day we stepped back

and realized just how we were different that day

& First hand, I can tell you, there is no lonelier time

Than when you realize you may be outcasted

Even brutalized in this life!

Punished and Questioned by the ones you love and adore

Minimized to a sinner, or a dyke, or a whore!

& This is the road we get to look forward to!

These are the things young gay teens fear

So, some of us shy away from family and friends

Some of us die on the inside

Wishing it all would just end!

Some find the strength & courage

To not only live but thrive

& Out of fear and loneliness

Some of us even take our own lives

So, will you listen to my story?

Because I am living proof

This is a fight for human rights

& you should be angry too!

Cause I’m not sure if you heard about it or if you even knew

Our country's foundation says

Life, love and happiness are for us ALL to pursue.

Lyric Lee

GUILTY

I am guilty.
Guilty!
Yet human at best
& Now, I sit at the mercy
Of your forgiveness


Can it be done?
Can we go on?
Can we stay strong?
Past the accusations of right 
..... & of wrong?


Now only distant lovers
With broken dreams
Trapped in a melodrama
Where things are never as they seem
& this time I'm to blame


This time the guilt is my shame
So I lay in the ruins 
Looking over the mess
Holding my breath knowing
I'll die waiting for your forgiveness


But don't dare judge me
As I stand here with my mistakes
Naked to you, tears of shame on my face
I'm here in humility baring the guilt that's inside 
Hoping to be absolved not cower behind my pride.



LyricLee 2009

Questions

Now I know what you think
When you look into her eyes
You desiring her
Means you've been feeding me lies

She challenges you
& your concept of us
Along with the Love
Now I question the trust

The time and the faith
I have put into you
Now knowing the truth
I question what you do

But I saw this coming
Its no surprise to me
As you decide what you want
And with whom to be

So here's to the question
I wouldn't let you ask
Because I knew you loved me
But were not through with your past

So do what you must
Yet don't string me along
Or hold me tight and tell me
You haven't wanted her all along

LyricLee

As I Am

Freedom's been given to me
It's my birth right to fly
Regardless of the questions
Allow my spirit to rise

I'm fighting for a reality

In what was once justified

By the air I breathe

By the tears I've cried

I've fought hard

To be who I am today

Stand for what I do

Back all the things I say

And I am only me

This is the way I will stay

So take me as I am

Or simply walk the other way

'Cause the last thing I'll do

Is beg you to stay.

LyricLee

Because of You

Because of you
I look in the mirror

and am unsure of what I see

Because of you every morning I ask

To be accepted.. must I hate me?

Because of you I wonder

Because of you I ask

It's because of you

I've wanted to run away from myself

Get away fast.

Because of you

I cry

Because of you

I've die

Because of you

It's fine!

For them to do this to me 

Because of you I hate who I am

So I prayed to the Heavens

The Heavens in which you believe

"Can I come back as someone different someday?

'Cause I don't want to be me."

Because of You

I struggle in ways no one ever should

Because of You

I march alone

I never thought I would

Now I can't trust myself

or that quiet voice within

It's like looking at a piece of myself

Screaming out you're not right

Amanda you're broken!

& It's all because of you

I wish you only knew....

How much you hurt me then
&
How much it hurts me still.

LyricLee 

Her Love

Have you ever looked

At your woman and known

She deserves so much more than you?

At times, when you looked her

Do you ask what more can I do?

Do you hold her extra tight

When you make love to her at night?

To assure yourself she's real

Her love is truly what you feel

When her touch brushes you

And you fear its your imagination

Do you realize she's the one

He made for you, God's creation?

When she takes your breath away

By her sweet sexy smell

Every time she passes by you

Are you reminded of why you fell?

& When she lays close

In the safety of your arms

Would you give your life to protect her?

Keep your love and her from harm?

And when she smiles at you

From across a crowded space

Do you think of forever

As your heart speeds to a race?

Do you cry cause you wish

You had so much more to give?

That one incredible woman

Your love and reason to live

All you can do is tell her

Whatever you truly feel

All that's in your heart...

"I love's you's never felt so real"

LyricLee

Walk Away

When you give all you've got

Even your very last tear

And all you want is for her

To hold you near

Once you have nothing left

To offer or give

Still you'd give your last breath

Only to watch her live

Still she pushes you away

Though you love her so

Her past and her pride

She will never let go

And when you reach for her

She pushes you away

Though you admit you need her

Its the same everyday

You say you won't beg

Then your down on your knees

While you bleed in pain

You cry alone in vain

Because she noticed your tears

For they've flooded your eyes

But still she walks away

Though she can hear you cry

So how can she love you?

Want you as her wife?

When she refuses to share

The precious parts of her life

Like her hopes and her dreams

Life's frustrations and fears

She does not trust you enough

To reveal what is so dear

See, there's nothing you can do

It's the way things will stay

So gather up your dignity

In the face of your pain

Ask God for peace and strength

Hold onto your faith

Cause it's gonna hurt like hell

Once you decide to turn and walk away

LyricLee

How I Wanna Love

When I think of how I want to love, I think…

I want to love deep like the roots of my ancestors

I want to look into the eyes of the purest love

I want to be touched by the angels of heaven

& when I share a moment…

I want to live, breathe, and love that moment!

I mean, I want to be caught off guard by butterflies

& exhausted by my hearts endless tries

I want to see forever in my loves eyes

I want to wake up inspired

When I make love, create fire!

I want to pass out from my bodies endless desires…

I want the colors to seem brighter

Life’s burdens to feel lighter

I want a simple kiss to get me higher

I want to love forever.

From now ending never

& You know what? It's out there.

So, for now, I thank God for such a wondrous pleasure

& for allowing us to love

With no Earthly measure

LyricLee

Stimulate Me

If you want in, break down these walls

Unlock my chains & untie my hands

To behold my treasures

Conquer my emotions

& Bind me with your words

Stimulate me Baby

Make me tingle from head to toe

Hold me with each breath

As I crave you more

Make me melt in your hands

Until I puddle to the floor

Give me your intellect... you're brilliance

I want to know all of you

Stimulate my soul without a touch

Withhold your kiss from my lips
Get me on your level

With that good talk
I want that mind sex

Penetrate my mind with your words

Caress me from the inside out

Bring me to Heaven then walk me back down

I want to enjoy your mouth

Experience all it can teach me

Yes, give me all you've got

Down to your very last thought!

Hold me with your gaze

Without the comfort of your arms

Show me the intimacy

I've longed for like the deserts

Which long for the rains

Yes, unlock my chains & untie my hands

Conquer my emotions

& Bind me with your words

LyricLee 

Eternal Horizon

I look at you daily…

You’re just out of my reach

Every time I lean towards you

You take a leap

I chase you with my body

Exhaust my endless mind

I take steps towards your comfort

And you rob my dreams blind

                   

See, I learned it’s all an illusion

One I can never touch

It’s just never meant to happen

Though to me it’d mean so much

Cause every step I take

You take another

Over here.. over there

In one way or the other!

And I’m left feeling quiet… & silent, still

I miss chasing you

I think I always will

I look to you now

& there quietly you stay

I don’t run after you anymore

Though I hope to race again someday

I will run in the direction

My heart tells me to go

I will travel forever to touch you

To a love I will always know

LyricLee