Thursday, August 27, 2015


To all the lies you told me

& all the promises you broke

To all the tears I've cried

For all the letters you wrote

To all the "forevers"

& all the "soul mates!"

For making me love you

To believing in fate

For making me trust

To making me cry

For making me that girl

To leaving me with why

For us and our love

To breaking the tie

For me wanting to live

To me wanting to die

For asking me the question

To me screaming yes

For us and our dreams

To putting us to rest

For all of our past

To a future without me

For wherever life takes you

To my future wife-to-be

For the pain and the laughs

To the loss of the love

For the smiles and the tears

To the memories and the grudge

For truly taking a chance

To truly making a choice

For "What happens next?"

To giving me a voice

For all that has happened

To the pain that remains still

For nothing will be the same 

To what's meant to be... will 

For the best that's yet to come 

I say, Cheers! 

Goodbye and thank you

Forever, My Love.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Prison of Youth.

Locked up! 
So much inside
Trying to run 
Dying to hide
& Yes, they know
For it’s on my face
Just put on a smile
Before the tears begin to race

I am looking for more  
But I cannot see
So I trip & I fall 
& I beg & I plead
I try to stand strong
Yet collapse to my knees
Praying for peace that
May never come to me

So shhhh…, Stay quiet
Don’t let them know
In the darkness you cry 
When it’s too painful to grow
'Cause it's scary to get hurt!
Or worse lose your way
Just keep your head up
Carry on with your days

Cause my dear friend
The truth is difficult to say
You’ve got to stay honest
Stay true, Stay brave.
Take it one day at a time
Let the chips fall where they may
Keep your head up
& surely you will find your way

Lyric Lee 

Sunday, June 14, 2015


It’s stirrings… feelings and immediately you know
That something makes you different, and you pray it can’t show
& being different means you have something to hide
Hence the beginning a life of lies
Maybe you could sense it
For us it was the same, the day we stepped back
and realized just how we were different that day

& First hand, I can tell you, there is no lonelier time
Than when you realize you may be outcasted
Even brutalized in this life!
Punished and Questioned by the ones you love and adore
Minimized to a sinner, or a dyke, or a whore!
& This is the road we get to look forward to!
These are the things young gay teens fear

So, some of us shy away from family and friends
Some of us die on the inside
Wishing it all would just end!
Some find the strength & courage
To not only live but thrive
& Out of fear and loneliness
Some of us even take our own lives

So, will you listen to my story?
Because I am living proof
This is a fight for human rights
& you should be angry too!
Cause I’m not sure if you heard about it or if you even knew
Our country's foundation says
Life, love and happiness are for us ALL to pursue.

Lyric Lee

Monday, June 1, 2015


I am guilty.
Yet human at best
& Now, I sit at the mercy
Of your forgiveness

Can it be done?
Can we go on?
Can we stay strong?
Past the accusations of right 
..... & of wrong?

Now only distant lovers
With broken dreams
Trapped in a melodrama
Where things are never as they seem
& this time I'm to blame

This time the guilt is my shame
So I lay in the ruins 
Looking over the mess
Holding my breath knowing
I'll die waiting for your forgiveness

But don't dare judge me
As I stand here with my mistakes
Naked to you, tears of shame on my face
I'm here in humility baring the guilt that's inside 
Hoping to be absolved not cower behind my pride.

LyricLee 2009

Wednesday, May 20, 2015


Now I know what you think
When you look into her eyes
You desiring her
Means you've been feeding me lies

She challenges you
& your concept of us
Along with the Love
Now I question the trust

The time and the faith
I have put into you
Now knowing the truth
I question what you do

But I saw this coming
Its no surprise to me
As you decide what you want
And with whom to be

So here's to the question
I wouldn't let you ask
Because I knew you loved me
But were not through with your past

So do what you must
Yet don't string me along
Or hold me tight and tell me
You haven't wanted her all along


Tuesday, May 19, 2015

As I Am

Freedom's been given to me
It's my birth right to fly
Regardless of the questions
Allow my spirit to rise

I'm fighting for a reality
In what was once justified
By the air I breathe
By the tears I've cried

I've fought hard
To be who I am today
Stand for what I do
Back all the things I say

And I am only me
This is the way I will stay
So take me as I am
Or simply walk the other way

'Cause the last thing I'll do
Is beg you to stay.


Because of You

Because of you
I look in the mirror
and am unsure of what I see
Because of you every morning I ask
To be accepted.. must I hate me?

Because of you I wonder
Because of you I ask
It's because of you
I've wanted to run away from myself
Get away fast.

Because of you
I cry
Because of you
I've die
Because of you
It's fine!
For them to do this to me 

Because of you I hate who I am
So I prayed to the Heavens
The Heavens in which you believe
"Can I come back as someone different someday?
'Cause I don't want to be me."

Because of You
I struggle in ways no one ever should
Because of You
I march alone
I never thought I would

Now I can't trust myself
or that quiet voice within
It's like looking at a piece of myself
Screaming out you're not right
Amanda you're broken!

& It's all because of you
I wish you only knew....
How much you hurt me then
How much it hurts me still.


Friday, May 15, 2015

Her Love

Have you ever looked
At your woman and known
She deserves so much more than you?
At times, when you looked her
Do you ask what more can I do?
Do you hold her extra tight
When you make love to her at night?
To assure yourself she's real
Her love is truly what you feel

When her touch brushes you
And you fear its your imagination
Do you realize she's the one
He made for you, God's creation?
When she takes your breath away
By her sweet sexy smell
Every time she passes by you
Are you reminded of why you fell?

& When she lays close
In the safety of your arms
Would you give your life to protect her?
Keep your love and her from harm?
And when she smiles at you
From across a crowded space
Do you think of forever
As your heart speeds to a race?

Do you cry cause you wish
You had so much more to give?
That one incredible woman
Your love and reason to live
All you can do is tell her
Whatever you truly feel
All that's in your heart...
"I love's you's never felt so real"


Monday, April 6, 2015

Walk Away

When you give all you've got
Even your very last tear
And all you want is for her
To hold you near

Once you have nothing left
To offer or give
Still you'd give your last breath
Only to watch her live

Still she pushes you away
Though you love her so
Her past and her pride
She will never let go

And when you reach for her
She pushes you away
Though you admit you need her
Its the same everyday

You say you won't beg
Then your down on your knees
While you bleed in pain
You cry alone in vain

Because she noticed your tears
For they've flooded your eyes
But still she walks away
Though she can hear you cry

So how can she love you?
Want you as her wife?
When she refuses to share
The precious parts of her life

Like her hopes and her dreams
Life's frustrations and fears
She does not trust you enough
To reveal what is so dear

See, there's nothing you can do
It's the way things will stay
So gather up your dignity
In the face of your pain

Ask God for peace and strength
Hold onto your faith
Cause it's gonna hurt like hell
Once you decide to turn and walk away


Saturday, April 4, 2015

How I Wanna Love

When I think of how I want to love, I think…
I want to love deep like the roots of my ancestors
I want to look into the eyes of the purest love
I want to be touched by the angels of heaven

& when I share a moment…
I want to live, breathe, and love that moment!
I mean, I want to be caught off guard by butterflies
& exhausted by my hearts endless tries
I want to see forever in my loves eyes

I want to wake up inspired
When I make love, create fire!
I want to pass out from my bodies endless desires…
I want the colors to seem brighter
Life’s burdens to feel lighter
I want a simple kiss to get me higher

I want to love forever.
From now ending never
& You know what? It's out there.
So, for now, I thank God for such a wondrous pleasure
& for allowing us to love
With no Earthly measure


Stimulate Me

If you want in, break down these walls
Unlock my chains & untie my hands
To behold my treasures
Conquer my emotions
& Bind me with your words

Stimulate me Baby
Make me tingle from head to toe
Hold me with each breath
As I crave you more
Make me melt in your hands
Until I puddle to the floor

Give me your intellect... you're brilliance
I want to know all of you
Stimulate my soul without a touch
Withhold your kiss from my lips
Get me on your level
With that good talk
I want that mind sex

Penetrate my mind with your words
Caress me from the inside out
Bring me to Heaven then walk me back down
I want to enjoy your mouth
Experience all it can teach me
Yes, give me all you've got
Down to your very last thought!

Hold me with your gaze
Without the comfort of your arms
Show me the intimacy
I've longed for like the deserts
Which long for the rains
Yes, unlock my chains & untie my hands
Conquer my emotions
& Bind me with your words


Eternal Horizon

I look at you daily…
You’re just out of my reach
Every time I lean towards you
You take a leap
I chase you with my body
Exhaust my endless mind
I take steps towards your comfort
And you rob my dreams blind
See, I learned it’s all an illusion
One I can never touch
It’s just never meant to happen
Though to me it’d mean so much
Cause every step I take
You take another
Over here.. over there
In one way or the other!
And I’m left feeling quiet… & silent, still
I miss chasing you
I think I always will

I look to you now
& there quietly you stay
I don’t run after you anymore
Though I hope to race again someday
I will run in the direction
My heart tells me to go
I will travel forever to touch you
To a love I will always know